Cancer Mom

I used to be a normal person.  I was a wife, a full-time worker, and a mother of two beautiful, perfect, and healthy daughters.  I had friends, a title at work, a social life...I was V.P. of my Rotary Club, took paid vacations, and worked out daily.  I tried to make sure my girls had a good balance of education, social interaction, physical activity, and fun in their lives.  My worries were things like: our financial future, if I would ever get skinny, what am I making for dinner, and did the kids do their homework. And then, on a random Monday morning, in the fall of 2011, I became a Cancer Mom, and everything else disappeared. Daily life will never be the same, our family dynamic will never be the same, and I will never be the same.  Much of the change has been for the good, some of the change is mechanical and neutral...but the largest, most undeniable change is that there is a great big shadow that follows me around during every single second of my life.  Although my entire family has been affected (especially the cancer kid, herself), my stories will be just that…my story, with my perspective full of my anger, joy, pain, and love.  The purpose for this writing is mostly for therapy, a little to record this time in history, and a tiny bit to relate with other mothers dealing with similar struggles.  I have been feeling something inside urging me to write, so hopefully some good can come of it.